I’m nearly at the end of my pregnancy and these last few weeks have been pretty hard going but I’m just about surviving and feeling super excited about meeting our new arrival. There has been lots in the media lately about flexible working and I’m lucky enough to work for a company which offers the flexibility I need. Even though I’m a mum to a 3 year old toddler and with another on the way I’ve managed to work near enough a full time job as well as do all the usual mummy stuff. I feel proud of what I’ve accomplished in the last 9 months, it’s been bloody hard work but worth it to keep my own sanity and freedom. Working allows me to be me and have that down time from being a mum but the days I do have with my boy are special and I appreciate them a lot more.
As I’m nearing the end of my pregnancy, I’ve noticed Isaac becoming a lot more clingy, it’s like he can sense that soon he will have to share me with someone else. I have been feeling guilty about the amount of time I’ve been working and how he will soon have to share his mummy, but I have realised I shouldn’t feel that way. I never thought I could love someone as much as I love my little boy and I know now that it won’t change when the new baby comes along, your heart grows with each child and you will always be able to love each of them with all of your heart.
This morning we both laid in bed for nearly an hour, no TV, no usual morning craziness, just me and him snuggled up holding hands and talking about the baby. He wrapped his arms around my neck and gave me the longest cuddle as if to tell me everything will be ok. It was such a special moment as usually our mornings are chaotic, with trying to get up and ready for work on time and him wanting to go downstairs at the break of dawn to play and have breakfast. It made me realise that even though we may not have lots of special times together, I’m still his mum who he relies on, he doesn’t care the house is untidy or that we don’t always get to go to fun places, he will love me no matter what.
To all the mums out there, you are doing an amazing job! Never feel guilty about anything as we are always doing our best even though some days it may not feel like it. Our kids just see a mummy who loves them very much.
Keep doing what you are doing because you’ve got this! 🙂